One week away From My sixth chemo My last one I wonder what that means And think of all the people Nurses Doctors PA Lab techs All the people That have been there for me That answered my questions And still do Some I have never met Yet they push forward with me I can feel there prayers There energy And caring Cancer is such A strange beast One gets told You have cancer I have no idea What that means Or what to do with it I am still processing Still figuring it out I find I am Giving myself Permission As I come to the last chemo To feel And not just push forward And be more open To the feeling I don’t fully Know the outcome I know Lesions have shrunk I can ride my bike again I go for long walks Yet I want to be like I was Hike the places I want Knowing that I will not be tired Knowing I can plan For the next day Knowing Not the not knowing How I will feel that day I want my hair back For the warmth When I lean against Something cold As winter comes closer I still feel upbeet Knowing chemo Has helped me Knowing I have almost made it through All the cycles And still walk Bike Cook Plan I am a lucky one I still have energy During the day And night I remind myself How good it feels To be here And move forward How all the people At OHSU Have done their best Sometimes I wish I could give them all a hug But I guess They will Make do With my poems And my yodeling Thank you For being there